It feels like a perfect night for breakfast at midnight

So... I turned 22 recently. It was a boring affair, really. Quarantine will do that. I spent my day getting dizzy and light-headed from having to wear a mask all morning while grocery shopping, and then stuck in the kitchen making my birthday cake that I only got to blow out the candles for at 11pm.

A far cry from the glitzed up event I'd planned earlier in the year - a high tea at the Conservatory and an enforced cocktail dresscode because I wanted cute pics. Instead, I was wearing a black turtleneck and jeans with my sneakers on, very Steve Jobs-esque, and covered in icing sugar and purple batter. I wanted to make an ube crepe cake for my birthday cake and boy, was that a mistake.

I decided to go with a crepe cake because I thought it would take too much time to bake a normal cake. I think I forgot the fact that crepe cakes need more layers instead. It was taking ages so I tried managing two frying pans for it, but I couldn't multitask and ended up burning a crepe. My mom took over the other frying pan and my dad helped out with the ube halaya. It reminded me of the time I made donuts at 2am on a school night back in Year 9, and ended up setting the smoke alarm off. I was just so sleepy, I didn't notice the smoke from the fryer and thought my eyes were stinging because I was just tired, haha. My parents weren't happy about that, but they ended up helping me fry them and we had fresh cinnamon sugar donuts for breakfast. That was seven years ago and so much has changed since then, but between waiting until the last possible minute to start baking and getting stuck on something and having my parents swoop in, it felt like I was 15 with no idea how to do things again.

Truthfully, I'm not looking forward to the future in a lot of ways. The uncertainty about the economy, the environment, and literally everything else makes my stomach fill with dread. My anxiety hasn't given me a break about it, but it quietened down while I was baking and complaining about my cake to my parents. I really hope there's more quiet moments like that in the future. Here's to turning 22! :)